It's been a few months since I published my last life update and while I wish that I had some super exciting news to share with you all, everyone knows that's not the case. So, sit, grab a drink and get ready for me to ramble for far too long about my uninteresting life...

I moved back to University a month ago and let's just say, second year is incredibly full on. I've already had numerous breakdowns about the amount of work and being by myself again when I lived with Josh all Summer has been weird and I'm not too sure how I feel about that. The house that we are currently living in is lovely and there will be a University room tour coming soon but let's be real, I'm a lazy person so these things usually take me forever to actually get sorted. I do really like how my room is laid out and I've made my bed every single day since I got here which wow, I am impressed because like I said, I'm lazy. Living with my friends is great because I don't dread going downstairs to the communal areas and it's just pleasant to have someone to talk to when you're taking a break from crying over your uni work.

I also turned 20 a couple of weeks ago and I would like to say my life has changed massively since leaving my teenage years behind but alas, I still eat too much pasta and obsess over Eastenders. No changes here. I did celebrate my birthday more than I usually do this year with seeing my family back home and then coming back to Exeter to have a little gathering which actually resulted in me going out out. Now, there's something you didn't expect to read. I'm not going to focus on that too much though in this blog post as I do want to write about my experiences in a night club environment as someone with autism/anxiety as wow, that was one big sensory overload.

As I'm writing this, I'm really trying to control my spending and stop going into town 5 times a week because it isn't healthy and my bank account just isn't going to thank me for it. Instead, I'm working on putting the money in my savings because there is less than a year now until Josh and I move into our own place and I need to make sure that I actually have money to do this.

On the subject of money, I felt financial security for a whole 12 hours at the beginning of the month before it was snatched away from me. I applied for a job, I got the job, I was about to start the job. I didn't start the job. The pay was £2 less an hour than what I was originally told and basically, I know my worth. The job wouldn't have covered the costs of the things I need right now and so, it just wouldn't have been worth my time. It's really annoying because I thought that it would be a great job for me but some things are just too good to be true. So yeah, I'm back to worrying about money and constantly checking that I have enough to pay my rent. Love life, evidently. This is a bit of a sensitive topic but I think it's something that's so important to talk about as there's a lot of stigma surrounding financial conversations and I just think that, as a student especially, money can be difficult and we shouldn't all have to pretend that we are financially comfortable when we are not.

Regarding my personal emotions and all of that, my body confidence is at a zero which is a little bit awful but hopefully, I'll get back on track with that soon. Being back at university has really thrown me off and I'm just trying to remember to take time out for myself and not be completely consumed by everything that I have to do but that's easier said than done sometimes.

What's been happening in your life lately?