As we end the year, it's time to focus on what has happened; the good and the bad. I recently posted a final update on how my goals went this year but let's talk more generally about the past 12 months. Honestly, this is probably going to be a very rambly post but let's review 2018...


Personal Life

I wouldn't say this year has been one of the best years of my life. It's been quite stressful really. I haven't lost the weight I wanted to, my mental health hasn't really improved in that I'm still incredibly anxious and there's just been quite a few issues that I really wanted to overcome but I just haven't been able to. However, I do think that I've become slightly more confident in social situations, which is something that I've been trying to work on for years so I'm proud of myself for that.

I probably spent too much time in my room overworking myself and thus, being burned out this year. I hope that soon my mind allows me to take more of a break but for now, I'm just quite tired. I've realised a lot about myself this year, which I'm aware sounds super cliche but it's true. I just feel a lot more aware of who I am as a person, what I like, what I don't like and just what I want to do with my life. I started the year feeling pretty clueless about who I am and so, this is definitely a big step for me.

University

I finished first year with a high 2:1 which I was really happy with. My grades haven't been as good as I would hope in the first term of second year, even though I'm trying so hard. I'm just finding this year so difficult. However, my attendance has definitely improved since first year which is a big thing for me because if you've been around since I was doing my A Levels and I only had 30% attendance, you'll know that those types of environments can really stress me out and I have a habit of just avoiding them but I've been working on that this year and it's actually going really well.

During the first part of the year, I was writing for the student newspaper and magazine and I was even the treasurer of the magazine for a new months. Unfortunately, I had to step down from my treasurer role due to being far too stressed about everything and now, in second year, I'm not currently a part of any societies. While I wish I had the time to join a society to have another social network, it's just not feasible right now as I have so much on as it is.

I don't have the most friends at University but I really appreciate the ones that I do have. We moved into our second year house at the beginning of September and I prefer it much more than living in halls - we all know how much I hated living in halls.

Friends and Family

Unless you've been living under a rock for the past 9 months, I'm sure that you'll probably know that the biggest thing that happened to me this year was getting engaged. Josh proposed to me in April and since, I've been in shock about the fact that we are actually getting married. I don't know, it just feels like serious adulting at this point. It was the best thing to happen this year and I can't wait to plan the rest of our lives with Josh. 

Josh will be loving this ego boost now but I probably couldn't have got through this year without him. A lot of my friendships have felt very up and down this year - my anxiety convinces me that everyone hates me and it is the most debilitating thing. It got super overwhelming at one point and it was just horrid but it's something that I'm working on.

On a more positive note, Josh and I also became godparents to Sophia earlier this year. Still a bit in shock that people actually think of us as sensible enough to be godparents...

Work

I've spoke about what I do as my job quite a bit recently so I won't be going into too much detail but basically, earlier in the year, I won a competition with Liberty Living as my blog post was chosen and I am now a blogger for them and I have been for nearly a year now. This was one of my best achievements this year because I don't usually win things and so, this was a bit surreal. 

I then started working for an events and conferences organization as a business content and social media assistant in March until a couple of weeks ago. This was the start of my 'proper' experience in digital marketing and it was a good insight into how everything worked. 

In the last month or so, I have started working two new jobs; one as a content writer and one as a digital marketing assistant. I am really proud of myself and my ability to obtain these jobs, considering a few years ago, I could barely talk to people, this is such a big step for me.

Blog

Again, I'm not going to go into too much detail here because my 3 years of JustALittleBitOfLauryn blog post will be going up soon and I'll be talking about my achievements in much more detail there. However, this has been, without a doubt, my most successful year in blogging. From reaching 100,000 page views to working with amazing brands such as Yankee Candle, I've really tried to step up my blogging game this year and I'm hoping it only gets better from here.

Experiences

I wasn't really sure how to label this section but let's just go with that. I've done quite a few things this year that have been absolutely amazing and I feel so lucky to have experienced. 

Let's start with the theatre, I have seen Hairspray, The Book Of Mormon, Miss Saigon and my all time favourite, Hamilton. Honestly, my Spotify playlists consist of musicals and that's pretty much it so I feel so happy to have been able to see quite a few this year. My favourite was definitely Hamilton because well, Hamilton. I listened to the soundtrack every day for about a year so I wanted to cry a bit when I finally got to see it. I've also booked Les Miserables tickets for July 2019, which I've wanted to see for so long and it's definitely something for me to look forward to and get me through the rest of second year.

Then, Ed Sheeran. Josh took me to see Ed Sheeran in June in Cardiff and it was one of the best days of the year. I saw Ed Sheeran in 2012 and it's one of my favourite memories and so, to get the chance to see him again was amazing. Also, it was my first time visiting Cardiff and it's definitely somewhere that I would like to go back to for a shopping trip. 

We also went to Amsterdam in August which was incredible as it was somewhere that I had wanted to visit for so long and we would definitely go back. This also gave me the chance to work with so many companies while we were over there and we managed to squeeze in a very large amount of things within the 4 days that we were there.


How was your 2018 overall?